Tew

I've always been an all or nothing girl, which meant that I was always too much or not enough.  When I tried pretending to be a martian I would have said that the martian pronunciation of 'too' would be 'tew' with an 'ew' sound, and that's exactly what i tend to be, too much of that which makes us go 'ew' and nawt enough of what makes us go 'aw'.  And to be honest, I'm tired of this state.  I'm tired of trying to struggle for the approval of those who don't care but with whom ill be thrown if i expect to succeed.  Im tired of not knowing who will shirk me away.  I'm a dime a dozen and so are you, but you're the ones paying the dime, so why does it matter.  I'm not poor enough and too well spoken to be a charity case but not lucky enough to succeed without charity.  I;m as smart as you, but I'm not as pretty, I'm also not ugly, I get left in that gap.  I'm too fat to be a normal model but not fat enough to be a plus size model.  I have to realize that I fall into this gap because in my extremes I find equilibrium.  I am who I am and I need to find the people who are 'tew' too.