jade-nite

I wanted to write a letter, a rant because hey thats what I used to do and lately, thoughts of you have come creeping back. I'd tell the story of a knight who saves a princess but you, princess, never left your castle your dragon still lives and you're still scared. I'd tell you this in person but then ill overthink and chicken out and get mad.  so well see if you see it. I could compare you to so many things from shel silverstein, you are the giving tree but the boy only ever imagined that a tree could love him and you are the bagpipe who didnt say no, you never said no even as i walked away you didnt stop me you never cried you never ack

I've always been an all or nothing girl, which meant that I was always too much or not enough.  When I tried pretending to be a martian I would have said that the martian pronunciation of 'too' would be 'tew' with an 'ew' sound, and that's exactly what i tend to be, too much of that which makes us go 'ew' and nawt enough of what makes us go 'aw'.  And to be honest, I'm tired of this state.  I'm tired of trying to struggle for the approval of those who don't care but with whom ill be thrown if i expect to succeed.  Im tired of not knowing who will shirk me away.  I'm a dime a dozen and so are you, but you're the ones paying the dime, so why do

ok, so revealing countdown!!! Four things you'd do if the world ended the day after tomorrow: get my hair cut run to my girlfriend tell my father "i love you dad" get baptised Three wishes: to be fluent in all languages im exposed to to know how to cure any illness that the next wish a child makes on a star would come true Two famous people to describe you: i always wanted to be like Audrey Hepburn; pixielike, quirky, eccentric I ended up like Katherine Hepburn; outspoken, buxom, confident If, like in 'Happy feet', you had a heartsong, what would it be?  Believe from the Polar Express